December is here. I can't really believe it. I don't feel at all Christmassy. I've lost most of a year. Advent is about waiting. Waiting for the saviour to be born. We are waiting in this house. Waiting for good health and normality to resume.
So much darkness and despair in our lives the past few months it can be difficult to look past it and see the good.
Appreciative Advent 1
My son returning to health after a serious infection and surgery. That we see his cheeky smile once more and get to listen to his wonderful ideas for life again is a real blessing.
How do you get better? How do you recover? Do you suddenly wake with hope? Do you feel differently? Do you just notice after it has happened? What is recovery? Is recovery real? How long does recovery take? Is it even possible? How will I know what recovery looks like? Why does it take so long? So long I gave up hope. What do I need to do now? To end this nightmare forever. I don't know how much longer I can bear this. How can I continue? To face another day. It feels like this will never end. They say it happens slowly. That recovery is possible for me. Do they really know that? Can it really be true? Is recovery possible? Is there a flicker of hope? Or is it just a fairy tale that's not truth? Each day that passes by, Hope slips further away. I feel this is life forever. The tunnel light seems dimmer. No hope, no light, just darkness forever more. I cannot see past this. The pain overwhelms me. I'm deep in a pit of despair. Recovery is a ...
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